It really seems like it, the storm, its gone. All the pains, everything, seems to have missed everyone i was trying to protect. Im still not sure whether to let my guard down or not, but its hard, one person, alone being paranoid.
I guess, its really time to admit my job is done for now. I don't know whether to smile or not, now im kind of dizzy, headache, and yea can't walk straight. My purpose her has been drained, i should be happy, but whats there to be happy about at this dead end? My time left here is up to the people i walk with now=), i really hope i can stay, despite being unable to move. My fear is for them to forget me, loose interest in me, but who am i to decide for them=x.
Now i return to my line, my "home". It seems so broken, so empty, i really did not want to come back. But this is my life, whether its pretty or not, and i guess its just me, left in here to clean it up...
Without anything left for me to do, i guess, my focus is back on my exams. I still gots people i want to achieve good grades for, even if this year isn't all that important.
I guess im ready, ready to get to sec 4 anyway=x. Still, this end of year exam is like a challenge to me, all the other test, all the other CAs or SAs don't matter to me, this is what i have been waiting for to be over.
Oh well, i got time, not like another purpose will appear out of the blue tomorrow.
Even with this
emptiness of uselessness
I am happy,
happy for you guys=)
