Just got my phone back today, i don't know, seems like one day has past, and now im confused, disorientated at where i am. I didn't really get back my hand phone until 1.30, before then i was feeling so lifeless in school, feeling tired, just wanting to lie down on the table and sleep. I really missed jie as normally i would be checking on her as well><
Really wasn't in a good mood, with every small irritants i come across i just felt like screaming><.
If you guys thought its because i didn't get enough sleep last night, i slept at 11, earliest since the start of the week, and i feel downer then ever...
Last night was the worst, i lay down after i was done with my work around 10, and i couldn't shake the feeling of loneliness. I really don't blame anyone for this, i knew what everyone was doing at that time, and why they couldn't be there to es my loneliness. Jie was already sleeping, and i was sure she wouldn't still be awake, but i kept hanging on to my house phone.
Then i kept hearing my friend's voices, it took me an hour to think of something that will get rid of those sounds.
And even in sleep, i wasn't at peace. I had a dream, a dream of being locked in a white room alone, where i slowly lost my mind. The wired thing is, i really do feel like im loosing it><. I seem to be talking less, talking softer, talking softer, as if i was dieing somehow...
Haiz, i don't blame anyone for this loneliness, i really don't, i just wish it would leave me alone like how it did 2yrs ago......
Exams are coming,
don't know if this will destroy
all i want to accomplish...
