Its been about a month since i couldn't seem to get much or no sleep. I don't know whats wrong, every time i lie down, emotions and thoughts just flood my head.
I don't have any disease, im just tired, no normal person my age will know how its like, to want to sleep, but just couldn't, no normal person will know what its like to close your eyes, to see sorrow, and despair. The torment is almost unbearable, but yet i choose to go on.
There must be something missing from me, something that can still be recovered, something that comforts me, and blocks all this torment.
last night however, wasn't as bad, jie and cp talked to me before i slept, so a few minutes after i hang up, i went to sleep, only to be FREAKING woken up again by a dream......
I fainted in school, i just finished my test, and just like that, everything went black. Joel poked me to wake me up, i guess they didn't even know i had fainted, they thought i fell asleep lol. In a way, fainting is sleeping, but on a more breaking down fashion.
Haiz, guess my limit is almost reached, i always thought i could take more, always thought i was stronger...
Its a truth i can't deny, i can talk strong, and can act strong, but im weak...
Still im not one to give up, let the torment continue if it must, let everything i know and love be taken away if its the way fate had decided, im not giving up, not going down, as long as there is one star that shines, im staying here, even if the star isn't me, as long as light still shines, i will always be happy!!!!
It only takes one, just one, one person to keep away of the emptiness i once felt and to give this dreamer and his hopes up......
I just hope there will always be someone there for me, and i know there are already, people who want to be here til the story ends.
