Yesterday i was feeling happy as ever, Jie and CP were happy, i was thinking less, it seemed like it was there to stay. But that night when i went for my teakwando, i had a feeling, it felt like something was wrong, something was about to happen, as usual. Then i wondered what jie was doing, so i checked my hand phone during the break, jie smsed that she was crying><, but that wasn't the end, today she told me what happened to her last night. At the same time, i felt my pain again><, AHHHHHHH!!!! I guess at least now im coming close to thinking of a reason for my pain this time.
Hazizz, time is moving to fast><, Just yesterday i felt happiness, now i feel misery and sorrow.
For now im worried more about jie, she seems so down, depressed><. How i wish we can take a break, make time stop and relax for a moment. With each word i type here it seems as though im about to cry><, my heart fills with endless wants for others around me to be happy. Thoughts and things im doing for myself seem to have become a second nature, so that much more of my effort can be put into thought.
Why is this pain so hard to bare!!!>< I've taken 23 burns from the hot glue gun and 4 paper cuts today, and yet i didn't whine nor cry, but this, this is causeing my heart to cry and me to tear up.
I HATE IT WHEN THERES NO WHERE FOR ME TO TURN OR NO WAY TO HELP!!!!!!!...
