I have thought through every second of my life. To tell the truth here is a moment in time that i actually feel no pain. But i thinking about what happened to get here shocks me.
So many friends have came and gone, so many dreams and wish crushed like an ant on the table. I have always wondered, how come i didn't quit life long ago, where pain was all i felt. I guess for humans, u learn to loose and let go. Even at times where people are lost and you don't seem to forget them.
Writing this reminds me of all the friends i don't see anymore, Cheng Kai, David, Spencer, Liang Kai, those who made my primary school life unforgettable. The to all the maple friends, Oreo, Chaos, Sean, and 1 im hoping will come back soon Rick. He hasn't been online to a long time now and i miss that guy.
Strangely i have found something in my life to stand for, a second more interesting purpose in my life. Even if this purpose makes sometimes hurts me as well, i enjoy knowing i am never going to be alone.
People learn to let go, it doesn't mean that they are forgotten, maybe just released from the mind and heart. In a way i think that although we don't let go without loosing as there will always be something there, dormant, waiting to be awaken inside us.
The end can never be changed, we will get hurt and we will loose people, but the same can be said about us. If we LIVE life, not regret it, people around us will not get hurt, that alone is a purpose, one that i will never forget.
It is time for everyone including me to end this thought in their head "Why did they have to go" and start thinking this "what can i do to get them back" or "Time to move on".
It is fine to think about the lost for awhile, just never let it devour your soul, your personality,
YOUR LIFE. Always remember it is your life, you can't live it when you regret it.
A thought Finally rested
released from me, letting me move on
