Yesterday Jie told me what happen at night, don't know y i felt so much pain after i heard her reason for being sad. For that night the most i could have done for her was to pei her at as long as i can. i didn't think i managed to cheer her up much, maybe just abit.
This morning she smsed me, she told me what happen after i talked to her that night. i was still pretty blurh from waking up, an sms at midnight from her told me she also probably didn't sleep well. i smsed her most of the morning cheering her up, but wat happens in school also seems to be as interesting lol. the begining did not give me much hope as it was chinese and maths. But what she asked me at this time really hit me, she ask how do i feel towards her. i didn't know how to answer, so we decided to drop the topic, good idea too, i was afraid our friendship would be affected if i told her my feelings. after she seemed pretty cheered up, my day also got exciting as i got back to class. It was as if we were having a party, Iqbal used our class speaker to play some music, as usual me and joel brought food. I wasn't hungry so i did not eat much. Then during english we ended up throwing staplers, i don't exactly remember how it started, but it seems it was because another classmate threw the nerds sweet packet at joel. i think i was too excited cause i forgot about my injured toe, so yea, i twisted it again OUCH!!!!!
Dispite that excitment i still felt worried for my Jie until i was sure she actually smiled at work. As for my feelings, i thought about it the whole day, but i seemed to get more questions then answers. When i got home from school things kept getting better zzz......
My dad was home so i could only use my com to do homework. i talked to Jie and ya she still sounded sick><. CP smsed her and told her he was going to quit SF. i don't know what to think again, i really want to belive CP can pull it off, but time has showed that it won't happen.
Haiz life has so far been a rollercoaster ride, my real life seems to be more happy, but happy gets kind of boring after awhile. there are no problems, no one that seems to need me. Latly my maple life has been merging closly with my real life, although it only means i have more to worry about, i like it, for once in my life people need me, and i learn to need others. It has thought me to feel, to dream, and to belive that in life there are such things as stories.
