This weekend wasn't bad, its was my cousin's bday yesterday, so he came over for a bbq. i don't know, felt so weak that day, probably because i did not sleep the previous day. I kept thinking, about what i can only remember that it was not a painful as previous thoughts. I was dizzy most of the day, until jie and CP told to go and nap. the 1st 20 minutes was a waste, then i fell asleep for 15 minutes.
When i came back my cousin was already coming so couldn't spend much time with jie and CP, just as well he wanted to play SA lol.
When i went to help with my cousin bday, jie went to sleep so ya. In the time i was afk, me and my cousin were doing so many things lol. At 1st we dota-ed for awhile, until my cousin went to eat and i went back onl9 to pei jie.
After i offed i went to do what me and my cousin usually do, make fire=P. We filled the balloon with bug spray and covered it with party popers and yes it made a big BANG!!=P
We also made water balloons to throw at our parents since they also did it to us lol. I felt bad, so i let my cousin do the water balloon throwing haha.
The bbq was ok, but then i felt guilty that i had not spend much time with Jie or been there more for her today. She called me latter on with news that worried me even more. She cut herself on her wrist cos i wan banging my head the other day><. I'm seriously sorry jie that i did that and made u hurt yourself><. That night i talked to her, i felt so short of breath cause i was SO drained after cleaning up after my sis. So i was breathing heavily the whole time i talked to her. That night she got me thinking, and even made me cry thinking, i know when u read this u will say sorry again, but don't worry. I kind of like it, it has been awhile since that topic was reactivated in my head.
Then we fell asleep lol.
Today seemed calmer, my mom thinks i have a GF LOL, oh well, i don't so no point defending as long as i know i don't=P.
Jie and CP jus went out so ya. Today i pei jie and CP for most of the day, Nicest also joined us lol. Until CP went to play SF, jie went to sleep and nicest went to study. When i got back, only Xiao Min was online, and didn't reply much, so i checked on jie. She was getting ready to go out so ya, she pei-ed me until CP reached her house. Now i don't know what to do, i guess i will just spend some time thinking, at least thats something that keeps me from getting bored=P.
Haiz the day is ending, just don't feel like i have done enough this weekend...
