Last night was the worst, my handphone dropped and so many buttons were spoiled. And i really wanted to find out how jie was doing. It worked fine for awhile, but slowly got worst and worst. After jie talked to me for awhile, she said she wanted to be alone><. That made me so worried><, i tried to get the phone to work, but it was so shitily spoiled, i traded phone with my mom so that i could sms. But when i sms-ed jie, i guess she either already went to sleep or was busy with something. That only made me that much more worried and anxious to talk to her.
I guess the only time i got to talk to her was this morning, but she didn't really reply, latter in the day she told me it was cause she was sms-ing cp and ben, but ya still got worried LOL.
I think it was because of that that i kept thinking today. I wondered, how come i have been so out of touch with everyone around me, i seemed to not know what happened to them and not know y they were like that. I kept thinking why the hell i was fading in mind, how come so much is happening that i don't know. I was afraid that i was about to disappear from the picture that im in now. I was so frustrated, sad and angry at myself for letting me fall into this path of thinking. Only after i checked on jie did i break my chain of thought, she told me that she won't let me fade and would put the colour back onto me. It was so touching i teared up lol.
Later that day, i made another star, its become like a hobby. In business course was the worst, got bullied abit, and endured 1hr of boredem. The course is almost over, next week theres a holiday on tuesday and the next week is holiday week^^.
Im so glad that the day is almost over, just seems so confusing today, and i was so happy to get home, its like been a freaking long day. I really hope there is no CCA tomorrow, i haven't yet got a report for my bridge making competition, The freaking thing that is made of sticks has to support 30
FREAKING kg of weight, so i need to do some research of sound and strong structures.
Actually it sound pretty easy compared to some other competitions, i don't know, we will have to wait and see, i guess it should be triangle shaped, the hot glue has to be focused at the joints and the strings has to support it by the top.
Haiz, now actually my issue is finding the answers to all my confusing questions that keep playing in my head,
ITS SO FRUSTRATING not answering them. But i guess soon they will be forgotten, lost through the endless void of time...
