Haiz, im still have the sense that something is wrong, but ya just like being alone often, im starting to get used to it. For so long it seems i have been avoiding my problems, maybe its because im afraid to face them? Afraid to know what will happen if i face them.
There are paths for all our lives, which path u take determines our futures. But sometimes, you have to look down, to see that your still on the path you want to be on.
But as you do so, u see all the dirt, all the impurities, litter that your path has. It takes a brave person to try and clean this path, facing every single problem that he comes across.
Somehow, im not that person. I constantly trouble myself over cleaning other peoples paths and not noticing my own. And each time i think, i see my path is so torn up, so destroyed that i can't even touch it anymore, only walk on it. But still, i choose to ignore it.
Now, it hurts to walk on it. I have tried before to clean it, but it just ends up with me ignoring it again.
Even now i want to help others, and continue ignoring my own, but its hard when there is pain. Still i try to put on a happy face=P.
I mean, maybe this has become a habit, ignoring my own problems. In the first place i think of myself last, so its hard to focus. I don't know, maybe i will just keep trying to smile, perhaps in awhile the pain will leave again.
Oh well, Forward is where i want to go, so time to move on...
At least now i can smile and forget it, as long as it stays im going to be fine^^
