Exams are almost here, i feel storms coming. And its not only the exams.
Lately it feels as though everything is just threatening to explode, all the demons, all the feelings, everything is just about to give way.
I used to wake up staring at the beautiful sky which although meant that there was peace, just causes thoughts to go through my mind. With each beautiful day that passes, a new storm prepares to rain down. All the feelings that have been locked away, now too are breaking through the doors of my soul.
Im preparing for the worst, all the loose ends, all the forgotten details, all i have sealed as tight as i am allowed. But i am only me, a weak teenager, a shadow of what i felt i was awhile ago.
How come, how come everything has to happens at once. And now i feel even more useless, my use has literally cut down to only watching. In any case, a watcher does not intervene, but i don't want to sit back, and watch all the suffering from where i stand, i want to help.
I have been holding off fate countless times, is that really such a sin that now i am forbidden to help?
I don't know, i just don't want to watch, thats all i did for so long.
The storms coming
i just hope it doesn't
finally destroy all
i know and love
