My heart aches, lying in pieces already, and still breaking...
I woke up this morning, it was about 5 seconds, when i suddenly felt sadness, pain, sorrow. I started crying, but i don't know why. The pain seem to came out of nowhere, perhaps, there was just too much going through me, so many feelings, so many things left unsaid for too long.
My heart still lies in pieces, only 25% of it remains in tact, but the healing stop there, and no more healing took place. That seemed ok at the time. Just the hole in me again.
Now i feel the pain, everything i should have felt so long ago. my already shattered heart breaks more, the pieces lie in bedded all around my body.
Yet through all this, im still trying to smile, not looking for help. Its a complicated thought that goes through my head. That maybe people just don't want to hear it, or how to say it to them even if they do.
Why is there so much pain, what could have cause my injured heart to be crushed farther.
Even now i feel the leaches on sorrow sucking the life out of my soul. Its frightening.
I don't want to go through this alone=(, and i know im not alone. I need help, this time it even hurts too much to think about it...
Exam is in 2 days, i think i should be ready...
I can't imagine
going through this
alone
Really hope that
im not alone now
I really need you
Im staying here 4ever
