Here i lie now, tired. Haven had much sleep yesterday, and i don't know why, after awaking, i am stricken by heart breaking sadness. My mind tells me its nothing, but the pain is just too much to ignore.
Perhaps ignoring all the feelings and thoughts just causes this, i don't know, the thought just came to me. Some thoughts of loneliness, my fears, my paranoia, just decided to eat away my soul.
I really hopes it fades, sooner or later, the pain is as if someone just broke my heart, again and again, but there isn't anyone to do that, i made sure of it since my last try to rebuild my life.
This is probably just an emotional breakdown i guess. But first signs aren't looking good, i was hit by tears followed by sadness on my way home today. Lucky it faded after awhile, as my friends came over to do some work.
I am sure that this was not done my me intentionally, not much has passed through my mind for awhile unless writing my blog.
Anyway, i guess i got other things to worry about. My exams, friends, jie, and all those who need me.
I guess, I hope, this will fade soon...
Need help
can't afford to be
alone at this point=(
