Yesterday met jie and cp again^^. The last time i saw them was CP's bday at the hotel.
Was so nice to see them again^^. We sat at our usual place for slacking, and jie got her maid to buy for us KFC lol. After that, we went to the play ground and the exercising play ground. Me and CP keep trying to do a pull up lol, failed=x.
Aww it was so fun, i miss them already><. Anyway the next time im seeing them is at the chalet next week=), time seems to move so slow from not til then><.
Seems like im so free, but in my mind and heart, im still trapped=(, in the cage that prevented me from moving.
This seems to be devouring the last bit of freedom i am feeling, the happiness. Perhaps humans just aren't made to not move. So this is what you get when u hold ur hopes, ur feelings, and ur dreams back.
I am still afraid of the outcome, i am afraid of being crushed. Though my confidence is growing, i am still unsure of how to get going again. I have forgotten how to accomplish the goals that i have kept in me for so long.
This will be decided through time i guess...
All is lost again
But im not giving in
I will not fall
i will not fade...
