Who knew that sadness was such a persistent feeling, after locking most of the feelings that are unwanted away, only one feeling was left... Depression. Now its burning at my soul, and i don't know what i can do...
I seem to feel it when i close my eyes, like a sudden flame that would spark in there every now and then. Haiz, and now i know whats wrong, but i don't have the will to fix it.
For now i guess, i would let it roam until im ready to face it. Why can't i have mind of peace and happiness? Its suppose to be normal, but there are storms brewing in there, storms that i don't want to fight for now...
Now i just want to live my life and enjoy it, perhaps at the end of the year, when i feel stronger at least.
Exams are almost over.. 2 more days, and the 2 subjects are 2 that theres really little to study. I feel confident, besides, Its not really necessary to remember everything in my DnT text book=x, theres a manual with all of it and more i will be getting when i go to work=P. And for literature, theres really not going to be a need for it in the future=), just help me talk and quarrel better.XP
Im confident, now i just have to wait for the tomorrow to come.
For me this exam is already an obstacle passed, i already know i passed my english, science and maybe DnT=x. That means im going to sec4=P, not held back nor ITE lol. I still wish that fate on some of the bastards in my class, irritating people whos goal is to drag me down... NOT GONA HAPPEN!!!!
And i just got a new song, i don't know this sentence in the song means alot to me
"when the rich wage war its the poor who die", its a linkin park song as usual, and it kind of true.
Anyway, im just going to continue life, and continue holding on. Its wired, i always thought letting go would be easier, but it seems, im not good at that, holding on is me=)
Im left in the wake
of the mistakes
slow to react...
