Yesterday, so many unforeseen things happened=(, jie was upset, at the same time as me feeling all the crushed feelings. Couldn't sleep last night, probable slept at 3.30, but remember alot of tossing and turning after that, Woke up at 6.45, dazed, tired, feeling lowest of the low.
The sun was already up, and i couldn't sleep anymore, kept worrying about jie=(, it took me trying out lifting my dads weights to take away the feeling that i always had in the morning.
I smsed jie and went downstairs, cried abit, but pulled myself together. At least when jie called, she seems better, i hope she is and will be=(, i really can't stop myself from worrying=x.
We all went into maple, and did so many things, scarlion, papu, nick's rush quest, and everyone gained something.
When night came my tiredness went into massive state changes. First i felt dazed, and then it started to get worst, to the point of me getting angry at myself for being that way. It was really head bleeding pain, until awhile later, where it just numbed my entire brain, and i couldn't think, walk straight, sit properly and my body constantly threatened to collapse.
Then i suddenly had a rush of thoughts, thoughts of pain, thoughts of sadness, as if something was trying to unlock all i tried to keep aside for now...
Haiz, i feel like im getting better, but its still going to take awhile for me to know for sure......
Mistakes,
i wish i wont make
them ever again
Im afraid to fall again
