Today, after i came back from school, i spent all my time with CP and Jie. After we had gone for a few bosses, we settled down in the Fm to chat. They consoled me about beebee, and i really felt so much hope in me. I never thought a mistake i made last week would come back to strike at me.
I know, it affected jie too, she felt betrayed, these i don't need anyone to tell me. I should know, after so much we had gone through together.
My judgment has been really corrupted lately, i really can't make a good decision. Every thing i chose seemed to be the wrong move. I knew it was a mistake, from the very start, but, i don't know. Now i can find nothing that can excuse me from it. That is how i know, i know how far i have slipped. MY guilt overwhelms me, my sadness consumes me. I can't stop crying...
I really can't stand to lose her, shes the only one i can talk to nowadays, there is really no one else, and i blew it, just like that...
I can't stop regretting, i want to keep saying sorry, but each time i say it i feel worse=(, im just really sorry... i say this from the bottom of my heart, but it still hurts, im still crying, each just flows, and i can't stop it...
My mistake...
it was my mistake
my guilt
breaks my heart
smaller and smaller
my sadness,
overflows it
Why must i make this mistake......
