Its been awhile since i blogged. Things just haven't been so distressing to me til now.
Change has always been something i guess i understood. But yet, its something i cannot explain.
Change assures in joy, peace and even happiness, and also pain, anger and sadness. I have never been an enemy or change. What i kept in mind, was that things that change, however joyful or painful, only opens the door to a better future. No change happens for no reason, but yet, there are changes we must fight. The need to make your life comfortable, at the expense of others, however peaceful it may make your life it destroys other's. Against this i have always sworn to find somewhere where my actions are never hurtful, and that i will not change, unless i have to.
What has always hit me hard, was when the people that i do this for, don't do the same, and leave me behind. I have never feared to be alone, if not i wouldn't be the person i am now. Still... i am only human, who feels pain like everyone else.
For awhile there i actually hoped things can stay the same, but now im feeling doubt.
these are just thoughts that passed through my mind. Now i ask myself, am i the only one that is trying so hard to stay the same? Only time will answer me.
changes will happen, but 1 promise i make. If changes do happen, and if someone has to get hurt, i promise, it won't be any of u.
I am afraid
but ready
Afraid of the pain
afraid of the sadness
but ready to take it
ready to let it go
