This last week end was fun=), was having fun pretty much the whole weekend^^.
It started on friday=), JieJie took leave on that day so that she could spend time with cp^^, her maple couldn't download for awhile=x, so CP after having breakfast with her, went to her house to help her=). AND IT WORKED^^.
We then met at about 3 at jiejie's house=), we went to new york new york to eat dinner. After the ice cream we were almost dead=x. SO FULL!!!!
Then on saterday=), spent the morning onl9 together^^, then went out again at night, we wanted to watch Christmas Carol, but the only one we can catch was the 9.10 movie=x, so we went to eat 1st^^. AGAIN!!!! So full=x, cp order so much, then force me and jiejie to eat=x. It is the hawker center food=x.
After that i really felt disappointed, jie went to buy some cig box... haiz, i don't know what to say anymore, i keep telling myself that she will need time, and that she will make it. But 1st signs made me almost cry. Its seems like the longer this drags, i will more pain. With each stick she draws, i feel more sorrow. I don't know, i just hate it when the question of whether or not she will quit goes through my head><. But i don't blame her, i kind of blame myself. All the times i could have stopped it, i let it pass. What so many people have told me before is true. Im soft, too giving, without the will to oppose especially those closest to me. Im weak...
Through all that i pulled out what happiness i had left to smile home. Dad for 110% pissed at me for being home late=x.
Then on sunday, no time was wasted=), managed to get cp and jie to play aran=P. Then we chionged=x.
Through all this there was something missing... MY DARLING!!!<3=D Didn't spend much time with her><, really miss her=(. I MAKE MY PROMISE AFTER TOMORROW, I AM HERS!!!=D<3
All addictions
exist in the mind
say stop,
it will stop
say its go on
its will go on
