SHIT!!!!! I hate my mom><, i hate the way she controls, she WANTS. She thinks i have to be her little boy forever, her perfect little boy, BULLSHIT!!!!
FUCK, she thinks all children are perfect, all nice to their parents, all treating their parents 1st, WAKE UP!!!! Look around!!!! What do YOU see? 15year old boys sayang mothers? Teenagers talking to their mother nicely when being scolded? FUCK!!! IF U SEE THAT UR EYES HAVE SOME SERIOUS BULLSHIT IN THEM. You think im bad, keep pushing, you will see bad eventually!!
Now, im doing what i always thought of as me being too soft to do. SINCE I CAN'T GIVE YOU THE "NICE" TONE YOU ALWAYS WANTED, i will give you silence, so u never have to hear my "bad" tone again. IM NOT STOPPING TIL UR READY TO ADMIT IT!!! If ever i forget about this, i need everyone to remind me.
Haiz=(, don't want anyone to stand in the way of me and darling<3><, if this is a step then so be it, i want to be free of this FUCKNUT i call a mother.
I REALLY LOVE YOU DARLING<3. Hope the years pass quickly^^.
Today i haven heard from jiejie much either><, hope shes ok=(. Guess i will check on her tomorrow. Really worried about her these few days, just feels like something is about to go wrong again=(.
Words can be unheard
But silence can be felt
Cold, Saddening
It can give you peace
Yet drive you crazy
hearing only yourself
Like a weapon
it reaps people apart
